I struggled with unbelief in a personal God; I struggled with the hypocrisy in myself and the church. I struggled to reconcile the perfect grace preached in theory and so distorted in practice. Yet, in my struggle, I did not walk away from Christianity. This struggle had quite the opposite effect on me; it caused me to shift my hope from broken and flawed people to a holy and perfect God.

This is my attempt to tell my story and journey, which took the opposite turn from unbelief to…